Tomorrow I go back to work. I'm okay with that, but have a lot of guilt about leaving Shayla and Mark. I've been on a waiting list at one daycare for a month and a half and I found another one a few weeks ago, but they don't have any openings yet. The new one is much smaller and cheaper...and I know a person who works there, so I'm on a waiting list there too. In the meantime, my mom will watch Shayla. I think she's excited about it, because she went out and bought all kinds of stuff. I used to have a lot of anxiety about leaving Shayla with someone else, because I felt that only I should be changing diapers, rocking her to sleep and giving her bottles, but the day that Mark got hurt at work and my mom and sister took care of her, all of those anxieties left. It was never that I thought she wouldn't be taken care of, it was just that I wanted her to want me...now she does and I feel that that bond is fully there now.
Mark still only has a splint and hopefully will be getting a cast this week. I'm using the laptop now and it doesn't have any home pictures on it. Mark's had some connection issues with the laptop which makes me keep rebooting my computer, so for the time being, the laptop is the easiest to use.